Frozen

My mind will not let my body move.

These tasks are staring.

Calling for my attention.

I try to argue and convince.

Let’s get this done, now and today.

But no,

My being just wants to be.

It’s not like simply existing is satisfying.

It’s quite an odd moment.

And admittedly a little heavy.

It gets heavier thinking about obligations.

Do this and get that done.

Reply to messages; people have texted, and they are waiting for you to fulfill your side of the invisible contract of friendship. They are awaiting your reply.

My obligations. Can I let them go without falling apart?

What would I need, what would I need to get out of my frozen state?

I wish I could tell.

Let’s try this: a dialogue.

Hey

Hi.

How is your evening going?

I know you know how it’s going, you are me.

Haha, good one. We wrote a couple of things to do this evening.

Yeah I remember. I’m not in the mood for them.

Why so? What would you rather do?

I’m not sure.

Would you rather have some popcorn 🍿? Or maybe Netflix.

I’m not sure that’s what I need.

Okay. That’s okay, we’ll figure this out. 😊

Okay.☺

What will be the ideal situation tonight, if you could do anything you want?

Well I would just like to feel motivated no matter the activity.

Should we try an activity then, you don’t have to fully participate.

What activity is that?

Pack the clothes in your suitcase.

I don’t know, it seems like hard work.

Yeah maybe some exercise would help you, take you out of your gloomy mood.

You have a point.

So should we try it? We could stop anytime you want. And maybe we can play some fun music to dance along. What do you say?

Okay I’m willing to give it a try.

That’s my girl, that’s the spirit😀

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